When Evan first passed away just 2 1/2 months ago I spent most of the day-every day for weeks thinking about him. I was either replaying things we did or said or thinking about what I was doing without him and how much I missed him. I constantly looked at old videos and photos, listened to […]
Month: May 2014
I want to talk about love today. After someone dies love becomes something confusing in many ways. Think about it. They die. Their Facebook becomes memorialized, their lives are tucked away neatly, cleared out, dealt with-sometimes with lots of unnecessary drama. And in the end their lives are placed into the “memories” category. But what […]
This past week I discovered something so amazing I had to share with you guys. I had coffee with my new (and quickly dear) friend Ann Marie a few weeks ago and she told me about a DNA test she’d done where a particular portion was missing. It was the gene that creates “feel good” chemicals […]
After someone very very close to you passes away you find yourself trying to figure out what to do with your time. Evan was such a huge part of my day, hell my life! From his “Good morning sexy lady” (or something similar) text at 7:12 every single morning to his call around 10:30 as […]
Some days are awesome. I see light and feel happy all day. And some days are really hard. Yesterday was a hard day. As I thought about why I realized that it’s the days when Evan is very active and I can feel him strongly that I miss him more. At least I think that’s […]
Today I’m being shown VERY clearly that in all things we are to try our best to choose to FEEL happy. Easy? Nope. It’s raining and I miss Evan…but it’s like this whisper telling me to stop feeling sad and to just feel happy. Probably why he sends me that song all the time […]
I’m going to the ocean this weekend. It’s going to rain at least on Friday night and Saturday but that’s ok. It matches how I feel so often these days. Like my friend Cindy says of rain, it’s peaceful and cleansing. She’s from Seattle, I’m from Maine-guess we got used to rain lol. Anyway I […]
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